by Ben Gilberti, H.W.,M.
 
Chapter 12 ~  In God's Heaven (contemplative meditation)
 
God is all there is. Be still and know that I am God. Anything else I experience about myself is nothing. I do not have to make amends for it. I do not have to overcome it. I do not even have to confront it! There is nothing to confront, overcome or make amends for. All there is is God. That's all. All my sins and guilts were but a dream about nothing. There are no mistakes for which I have to pay. There is nothing for which I need to be forgiven. All of that was just part of the dream of duality, the dream of nothing. And I can completely let go of the entire dream right now by simply turning the focus of my awareness away from the dream and towards the reality of what I already am and always have been and always will be, God.
 
I will just be still and know that I am God. I Ignore, for the moment, anything else I experience about myself. I will not get busy right away trying to nothingize any of that, not just yet. For the moment, I just ignore anything else I experience about myself and turn my attention entirely towards my awareness of being awareness being aware that this awareness alone is the I that I am that is God and that is all there is. I contemplate on the fact that it is my own awareness that is the God towards which I have been reaching all this time.
 
I contemplate, "My AWARENESS itself is God." If I am aware of being one and infinite and perfect and absolute as I in fact am, if I am aware of that, then that is what I experience. My awareness itself is God. If I chose to make believe that anything other than God is possible, then that is what I experience by reason of my make believe. My awareness itself is God. ALL my problems are illusions that I and I alone have made from my own beliefs. My awareness itself is God. With my awareness now aware of itself as God, I know that I am everything that God is, and everything there is is the God that I am. I have no interest whatever in anything that appears otherwise. I have no interest whatever in illusions. I KNOW that I am the one God knowing and being all there is. I am in the dream but not of it. The dream means absolutely nothing to me whatsoever. Anything other than God being God is of no interest to me at all. All I do is see right through ALL dream appearances ALL THE TIME, because it's not the dream I am interested in seeing, it's God being God that commands ALL my attention. I already know that there in fact is nothing else TO put one's attention to, and so to put my attention to a dream of something other than God is to put my attention to nothing. I have no interest in nothing. All my interest and attention is focused on the only thing there is, God being God. All of my attention is focused on one thing and one thing alone, that right this instant and in every instant always, all that's going on is that God is being God. NOTHING ELSE WHATSOEVER is EVER HAPPENING! I have no interest in any appearance of something else going on. Nothing else IS going on. What do I care that I appear to be in a world where 99% believe that something other than God is possible. I know that's part of the dream illusion too. I know there is nothing but God being God, here, now, and always. I am in total peace and ecstasy at each and every moment of my life. I know who I am. I am the One God who is absolutely all there is, the One God who is entire, total, complete, perfect, absolute and infinite. I am that.

I am not interested in a dream that appears otherwise. I instantly see right through any and all dreams that appear otherwise. I am in the dream but not of it. I'm always in the dream seeing right through it to what is really going on -- God being God. I live each moment in this realization. And I am at peace within this realization. There isn't anything I need to prove within the dream. It is a realization that releases me from all obligations. I am absolutely free. It is a realization that releases me from all fear. I am absolutely safe. It is a realization that releases me from all want. I am absolutely all, infinitely.
 
From this springs all my delight, just as radiantly when I'm making coffee as when I'm "healing" someone at their request. I gladly do anything that the dream drama appears to require of me to do, not from any sense of obligation, but purely of my own free choice, simply because in contrast to what I know my self to really be, God being all there is, there is nothing within the dream drama that could possibly be of any interest to me one way or another. Roles of any kind in the dream drama, other than God being God, I know are nothing. Whatever role I discover myself in the middle of as I awaken as I have now to the realization that ALL ROLES other than God being God are nothing, is of no consequence to me at all. All that matters to me is that I am God being God, and that God being God is all that is ever happening.
 
Whatever a biographer might write about my life up to this point is of no consequence whatsoever. No matter whether that biographer would speak of my greatness or my infamy, makes absolutely no difference whatsoever. None of it ever had any reality at all. All there ever was, or is, or will be is God being God, and that is what I am now.
 
This is the source of ALL my delight, whether I'm sweeping the floor or inspiring a "loved one" to tears of bliss. I know that I am always, in every moment of life, doing nothing else but making love to myself. I am all there is. All there is is what I am. And being one with all there is is what love is. God is perfect love and God is what I am. Everything I do, no matter what I do, is I making love to myself.
 
How much does God appreciate Himself? That is how much I appreciate myself, God, who I am, and who I meet every moment of every day in anything and everything I ever do. Why would I have even the slightest, tiniest interest in being fooled by any dream appearance to the contrary?! I am in the dream, but not in the slightest degree of it. I am of my own self -- God. And that is the sole source of my limitless delight. My awareness that God being God is all that is ever happening is the sole source of all my delight.
 
My awareness itself is God being God. If I chose to be aware of God being God only, that is the only thing I will be aware of. I now know that God being God is all there is and all that ever can be happening ever. Appearances to the contrary can no longer get me to believe in the beliefs that create them. Appearances to the contrary are now to me like a fading echo of something I now realize was nothing. The former passes away and is no longer brought to mind. I am God, and God is too pure to behold iniquity. I pay no attention to the fading echo of nothing.
 
I delight in seeing God only, right here where the fading echo still lingers. I take great delight in knowing that the dream illusion is nothing. I take great delight in knowing that the dream doesn't matter at all. I take great delight in knowing that all that matters is that I am God. I take great delight in knowing that the contemplation of myself as God, the loving of myself as God in every thing that I do in every moment of my life is unfolding itself in an infinitely expanding revelation of my own inexpressibly exquisite infinity. Practicing the Presence of God is for me infinitely more delightful than anything the dream drama holds out as providing delight. I'm always enjoying the presence of God. I am at every moment in God's Heaven.
 

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