by Ben Gilberti, H.W.,M.
 
Chapter 31 ~  Conclusion: Open Your Awareness to Infinity
 
There are no two ways about it. God is all there is, and therefore God is the only presence anywhere, anytime. There isn't anything else TOO be aware of, so if you ARE aware of something else you are aware of NOTHING. Everytime you remember that in relation to something you are aware of that is other than God, you are NOTHINGIZING. And once you have nothingized everything that appears to be other than God, then, finally, you will be awareness aware of itself as God.
 
Open your awareness to infinity. Your awareness already is infinite. Open your awareness to what it already is. Be aware of the infinity of your awareness. Be aware of your awareness itself. Notice how incomprehensible it is, how fathomless, how purely miraculous it is that you are aware, and that this awareness, this "I", is the "part" of you that is one with God. Don't just contemplate the words, contemplate the FACT, the REALITY, that you actually ARE, right now, not after you are enlightened but right now, you actually are awareness, and that awareness IS right now ONE WITH GOD.
 
Now good ol' Moses can't point more directly than that. And he can't go any further than that either. Awareness is right there with you every moment of every day, it never leaves you, it's always perfectly present being what it always is, awareness. It makes no difference what else you may be aware of, that awareness of yours always remains what it always is, awareness, the ability to be aware. It's nearer than hands and feet and closer than breathing. And it's God. It's WHAT you ARE. You can't be aware of anything with out it. It couldn't be more obvious, more certain, more absolutely true, that your awareness IS. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .ONE WITH GOD.
 
You start by just being aware that awareness IS. But eventually, as you keep doing that, you discover that this awareness of yours is infinite, perfect, absolute, whole, complete, one. It's sitting there, so to speak, being all that RIGHT NOW. All you have to do is be aware of IT, rather than aware of all kinds of nightmares contrary to IT. The IT being YOUR OWN AWARENESS. Stop taking your awareness for granted, feverishly searching everywhere else for what IT ALREADY IS. The Holy Grail is what you already are, and it's the exact opposite of anything mysterious, instead it is THE MOST CERTAIN THING ABOUT YOU -- that you exist as awareness. All you have to do is be aware of it. Aware of what? Aware of awareness. Not aware of all your words and thoughts ABOUT awareness, but aware of awareness directly.
 
Moses tells you exactly what to do, "Now that I've taken you this far, turn away from me, turn your awareness away from even your most spiritual words and thoughts, and be aware of what those words and thoughts were ABOUT -- BE AWARE OF YOUR AWARENESS. Silence is not to sit bored in blackness with scattered thoughts bouncing around. Silence is turning your awareness away from any of that and back on itself. You have total control over what you turn your awareness towards. You are effortlessly capable of sitting still and silently being aware of one thing and one thing only, awareness.
 
What will happen when you do that? You will discover yourself being aware of God. Will it be obvious to you? Yes. Will you be certain of it? Yes. Will you be able to explain it to anyone else? No. Why? Because it is impossible to explain infinity. Will it astound you. Yes. Because you will realize that this awareness that you are now spending so much time being aware of, is the ONLY SOURCE of all that you are aware of. You realize that this awareness, this most certain and essential part of you, is the ONE and ONLY source of the entirety of all that you are aware of, the entire universe. The whole thing, in it's entirety, is YOUR holographic dream, all of it, all the laws of physics, the grandeur of blades of grass and galaxies, it all exists ONLY in YOUR awareness, the exact SAME awareness of "everyone else" who is aware. You begin to SEE that the only "other person" you ever deal with is YOU -- the one and only awareness that IS.
 
Moses says, "So go on, now, it's right there, all you have to do is quit doing all these other things in your meditations and just sit there focusing your awareness on the most obvious thing in the world, YOUR OWN AWARENESS. Stop trying to do anything with it, just sit there very simply being aware of it, that's all. Just sit and be aware of your own awareness. You don't sit there hoping that awareness will deign to grant you awareness of itself. YOU ARE AWARENESS. You are being aware of YOURSELF. If anybody is going to grant anything it's going to be YOU because YOU, AS AWARENESS, IS ALL THERE IS. But don't take my word for it. Go and see for yourself."
 
If you get distracted at first, don't be hard on yourself, it might take some getting used to. But it IS simple and easy to do. That's the problem. You're always looking for something to do that's fancier. There's nothing fancy about this. It couldn't possibly be any simpler. You just sit there being aware of your own awareness. If when you do it you at first find yourself continually getting distracted by the pandemonium of things you're used to being aware of other than awareness itself, you just gently turn your awareness back to itself. Sure, you prepare for the silence each time by reminding yourself that God is all there is, but that is just for the sake of getting you clear enough so that you can see that this awareness of yours MUST BE this "Mystical 'I'" that is One with this God that is all there is.
 
So now there's nothing left for you to do but to become still and quiet and be aware of your own "I". Now there is nothing left for you to do but to "Be Still and Know that I am God." Moses won't go with you. And you will not be able to come back and get Moses to come along later. You'll never be able to explain it to anyone who hasn't discovered it already. But you will know it more surely than you know the nose on your face.
 
All that these words and thoughts, or any like it, can do, is tell you were to look. Now you have to LOOK, and keep looking, until you can finally see that it's always been plain as day. It's not hidden. It's not obscure. It's not hard to find. It's not lost. You are not cut off from it. And it doesn't take any time to get to. It is the miracle of your own awareness. Just sit there and behold it. When you get quiet enough you will realize that you are beholding God, and the God you are beholding is the awareness that you are, the one awareness that IS, the ONLY source of ALL that IS. You will KNOW it firsthand.
 
No one can look upon God and live. You will not survive being aware of your own awareness. Everything else you thought you were will disappear as it becomes clearer and clearer that awareness is what you ARE, the ONLY thing you are, and the only thing there IS, YOU, INFINITELY.
 
                    Ella Wheeler Wilcox put it well when she wrote:
 
                    God and I in space alone,
                    with nobody else in view,
                   "And where are the people, O Lord,"
                    I said,
                    "The earth below and the sky o'erhead,
                     and the people whom once I knew?"
                    "That was a dream, " God smiled and said,
                    "A dream that seemed to be true.
                    There were no people, living or dead,
                    There was no earth or sky o'erhead,
                    There was only myself -- in you.
                    "Why do I feel no fear," I said,
                    "Meeting you here this way?
                    For I have sinned, I know full well,
                    And is there Heaven and is there Hell,
                    And is this the Judgement Day?"
                    "Nay, these were but dreams," the Great God said,
                    "Dreams that have ceased to be.
                    There are no such things as fear and sin.
                    There is no you; you never have been,
                    There is nothing at all but me."
 

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