by Ben Gilberti, H.W.,M.
 
Chapter 6  ~  Nothingize the Parent
 
If you are engaged in any kind of endeavoring or efforting of any kind, you always have to ask yourself the question, "What is it that I am efforting to achieve?" If you're efforting to achieve it, you must believe you don't already have it, which means you must believe that you are a being other than God. Your belief that you are less than or other than God does not even in the slightest bit inhibit God, the one infinite being that you are now and have always been, the one infinite consciousness that is knowing all there is of infinity, from being always infinitely present everywhere and always and absolutely AS you and you alone.
God is one. There is no other. God is the only thing there is or can be. You cannot possibly BE anything other than God. It is absolutely IMPOSSIBLE for you to be anything other than God. And your illusions about being less than or other than God have no effect whatever on the REALITY that you are God, the ONLY God, being all, one, whole, perfect, absolute and infinite.
 
It makes absolutely NO DIFFERENCE how long you take to wake up to what you are, because when you do wake up the dream won't matter to you one bit, no matter how long you drag it out now. No matter how much you may be mesmerized into believing otherwise, and consequently experiencing otherwise, you still remain THE ONE. YOU still remain THE ONE. Not that other guy, Jesus Christ, or Joel Goldsmith, BUT YOU, THE ONE, in whose infinite consciousness, Joel Goldsmith and Jesus Christ arise. There is no source, other than YOU, THE ONE, from which anything whatsoever can originate. All the teaching and wisdom and Divine Grace and Divine Inspiration you receive, can ONLY come from YOU. Everything you experience originates from YOU. Any notion otherwise is believing in duality, in the possibility of the existence of something OTHER THAN God.
 
Satan would have you believe that it somehow is very good of you to be humble and modest and say, "Oh, me? No, I have a long way to go before I will be fully enlightened and experience myself as God. I'm working towards that, mind you, but rest assured I've still got a long way to go before such a grand attainment." And so here we are, all Infinite Way students, almost patting ourselves on our backs for such gracious, self-effacing modesty and humility, "No, not me, I'm still very much mesmerized by that awful 'Universal Mesmerism,' that dreadful 'Mass-Consciousness Belief in Duality' and I don't meditate round that clock like a major mystic and so that 'Mass-Consciousness Belief in Duality' sinks into my consciousness all the time and it's going to be a long road of lots of work before the day comes that I will know and experience myself as God." Can't you see what nonsense this is! It IS the belief in duality.
 
It poses as something else. It poses as this wonderful idea about what your position is in relation to the belief in duality, "It's not really me, you see, it's this OTHER THING, this Mass-Consciousness Belief in Duality, that I succumb to like everyone else. See, I'm really very much of a regular guy just like everyone else, poor chaps, all of them victim to that Mass-Consciousness Belief in Duality." And so we believe this wonderful idea because it appears to be ABOUT our spiritual development, and ABOUT how we will ascend up out of our belief in duality. But you see this seeming wonderful idea is not ABOUT your belief in duality, it IS your belief in duality.
 
The wonderful idea requires that you believe that something other than God can exist, namely YOU, or, if not you, then something other than you that's making this "Glass Darkly" that it's so hard for you to "See Through." You can't believe that there is anything whatsoever that is blocking, inhibiting, darkening, obscuring, limiting, confusing, mesmerizing, or in any other way affecting you being THE ONE God infinitely experiencing yourself as God, and expect to experience yourself as God.
 
You see, at this point you already know all about how God is all there possibly can be, and that it is the belief in the possibility of the existence of something other than God which is this belief in duality that is creating all the appearances of suffering and limitation in the dream. You already know all that, and have for some time now. Now you have to apply it to your ideas about spiritual development. As long as you have the idea that your development is going to take time and effort to "attain the realization" that you are God, there is no way you are going to attain that realization, because the idea IS the very belief that is creating all the appearance that you think you're somehow stuck with and which appears to validate the belief that it's going to take time and effort.
 
How can it take time and effort for God to be what God already is? You are God, right now, right this very instant. And you, as God, are right this instant all there is and all there can be. So there can't be anything else to inhibit or thwart or darken or becloud or mesmerize or distort or otherwise affect your awareness of yourself as who and what you really are. It appeared otherwise simply because you were believing otherwise. You were believing in duality. You were believing that something other than God was possible. But now you know that's ridiculous. Its believing that that which is not Truth can be Truth. Truth is all there is -- has to be -- because if there were "something else" other than Truth, just to be something else other than truth it would of necessity have to be not Truth, and not Truth would have to be so! It's ridiculous. And yet here we are working hard all day encountering this appearance and that appearance, all of them trying to "tempt" us into believing in duality while we valiantly try to keep reminding ourselves in countless meditations throughout the day, "No, no, no, God is all there is and all there can be, and so this dreadful appearance can have no reality, etc. etc." ---- all of it because we're happily believing in this wonderful idea about spiritual development that presumes that there is something other than the God that you are that is holding you back from experiencing yourself as what you are.
 
So when you sit down to meditate, before you try to nothingize any other appearance, nothingize this wonderful idea about spiritual progress and all the time and effort it's going to take. Nothingize that first. Realize, before you go any further, that the idea that you are not right now as absolutely and completely illumined as God Himself, is NOT TRUTH, is NOT SO, and never has been so nor ever will be, and that it was nothing but a completely untrue lie about the Truth that you are right now God in a universe where YOU, GOD, is all there is or all there ever can be.
 
To check to see if you have indeed nothingized the wonderful idea that there IS something other than God inhibiting God from experiencing God as what God is, ask yourself if you expect to get up from THIS meditation fully illumined. If you don't then you MUST be believing that it's going to take time and effort to overcome SOMETHING that is holding you back, SOMETHING other than God, and maybe in the 3,341st meditation you will arise from your chair fully illumined, but definitely not NOW, not during THIS meditation so early on in the game. As long as you are still believing that, what sense is it to be working at nothingizing any other appearance, like pain or suffering or illness or lack or limitation or whatever. All of those other appearances are just the children of the parent belief that there is something inhibiting your full experience of yourself as what you are.
 
Notice how you spontaneously react with "Wait a minute, here, I can't just give up my belief that I am not already fully illumined!" "I can't just give up my belief that I can't right this instant know everything that God knows and experience everything that God experiences and be everything that God is and have everything that God has and manifest everything that God manifests. I can't do all that in one meditation, for heavens sake! That's asking way, way too much." Notice how "natural" that belief feels! Notice how comfortable we are with the belief that it all can't happen right now, that it's going to take time. That's the belief to nothingize. The problem wasn't that you weren't very good at nothingizing. The problem was that you were busy nothingizing all these children beliefs while clinging all the long to this parent belief that just kept generating more and more of its children. Now nothingize the parent.
 

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